Figuring It Out — Slowly



Even though I haven’t figured it out yet, maybe this is that time in life where you start understanding your own boundaries, where you slowly realise what drains you, what heals you, and what you actually want to hold on to.

I’m not perfect. I never was. But I haven’t given up on my dream either. Maybe I’m late, maybe I’m not moving as fast as others, but that doesn’t mean I’m not moving at all. I’ve started believing that success doesn’t come to the quickest; it comes to those who keep going, even when it’s slow, even when it’s messy.

Yes, I procrastinate. Yes, I overthink. Yes, I’m still learning how to be responsible. But I’m trying, really trying, to become someone my future self won’t be disappointed in.

Sometimes I wake up and realize how much my parents used to do for me. The forms, the bills, the reminders,  now it’s me, trying to handle it all, figuring out money, time, and priorities. And maybe that’s what 18 is, the in-between space of being a kid and an adult, still learning, stumbling, but wanting to do better.

I know I can’t waste time anymore. After this, it moves too fast. But I also know it’s okay to move at my own pace, to not have it all figured out, to be confused, lost, and hopeful, all at once.

Because maybe that’s what growing up really feels like. Not perfect, not planned, just quietly becoming.

and maybe someday we’ll all look back at these early days,
the ones where we fumbled, procrastinated, and felt unsure,
and quietly smile at how far we’ve come.

every mistake, every late night spent overthinking,
every small step forward… it all matters.
it all counts.

we might not have it all figured out yet.
we might still be learning, still trying, still growing.
and that’s okay. really okay.

because moving forward, even slowly, even imperfectly,
is exactly how we become the people we’re meant to be.


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